It’s another on-call for the jail week – it seems like they happen again so quickly. This time, i’m keeping in mind Sin’s observation that these weeks are always hard on me, and trying to build in some self-care preventively.
So it doesn’t help that i woke up about 2:00 this morning and haven’t been able to go back to sleep. Sigh.
Things are a little rough at work these days anyhow. Sir X is a bright spot in my week.
This week, we are getting together on Wednesday, hoping that i won’t be too tied up in jail. {So to speak, no pun intended.}
i already have some instructions from Him.
First, He says that we’re going to begin doing rope as part of our regular routine. He already has some expertise in that area, and has taught a class or two on it, but that was some time ago.
Today, He directs me to this website ~
http://www.bizarcentral.com/bondage-news/1120886745/index.php
~ and advises me to pay particular attention to shinju. We will be starting there.
i’m also instructed to buy a particular kind of yogurt. He says He’ll “be having dessert on my labia,” which sounds lovely. i’m to purchase the yogurt mindfully, taking a moment to consider the purpose of it as i pick it up. i know that will be one of those *look around and hope nobody can read my mind* moments.
But i’m so looking forward to the rope. Feeling it wrap around me, holding me, caressing me… i can not wait.
As i think about it, think about Him ~ He said something in His last email, He said:
“You show promise in regards to further training.”
When i read that, i feel myself slip deeper into ~ into Him, i guess. Certainly deeper into submission to Him. i don’t think i can describe how that feels, but ~
Some part of me melts.
Some protective covering that i wear, it melts a little.
Not completely. Completely would be too much, we are not ready for that. i’m not ready for that.
But i can feel, just for a minute, what it would be like if the covering were completely gone. How my self would slide into Him, how my heart would rest in Him.
It is a moment to treasure.
why does this entry make me think of that old M&M’s advertisement tag line…. you know the one I mean, don’t you?
Mick
Um. Melts in your mouth not in your hand?
Nice, Mick.
Very nice. Laughing…
Aisha
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I like that he wants things done mindfully. I think it’s important that he gets that that’s important. 🙂
Thanks, Sin. i agree – that’s an important part of TTWD, i think. He’s very Buddhist in his spirituality, and in his approach to the world, so that flows nicely.
aisha
I can feel you melting from here, Aisha. Sometimes the little things they say just make us go “oooooooooh”!
Take care, Sky
I know what I feel like. It feels like a seeping of submission that invades, then occupies, every cell in your body. You feel it in your bones, muscle and tissue. It blankets your mind, your heart and settles into your soul. When that happens to you, the very thought of Him sends an indescribable desire to fold yourself into your Sir or Master. The longing to lay next to Him, to smell Him and to feel His touch is overwhelming. When your longing is fulled, it is complete bliss. And let me warn you, It is very addicting. Master and I spend too much time in bed.
Dear Smilingsoul,
You put that so beautifully – thank you so much for sharing your description here. That’s just lovely.
aisha
Ditto to what smilingsoul says.. perfect words!
Complete Bliss.. YES.. that is is.
Sir X- gosh I just really like him for you.. for both of you.
Simply Wonderful
~faithful
@Faithful,
Thanks – yes, Smilingsoul got it perfectly didn’t she?
Smiling… and i’m glad you like Him too, i think He’s gonna be around a while.
hug,
aisha
CONGRATLATIONS, Aisha on being one if the Top 100 Bloggers! Way to go! Love your blog!
Take care, Sky
THANK YOU, Sky! i’m so thrilled and delighted. Thank you.
aisha